January 2012
2 posts
i don't know why i fight for you this way
how did this happen? was i so blind that i didn’t see it all along? you have feelings for someone else. what do they have that i don’t have? why can’t i be strong and get out now? oh wait.
because i love you
all i want is to be in your arms and for you to tell me everything is allright.
i’m not stupid, if you have “feelings” for someone and not...
i love you
but you love someone else.
sometimes i just wonder…what life would be like if i hadnt made so many mistakes.
but then i stop myself…
i cant change the past..so dont live in it…dont dwell on it
what happened…happened for a reason.
and even if i dont understand that right now…i will someday<3
coffee and ciggerates….
one of the few joys in life<3
“Life is beautiful…but its complicated.”
purses = love →
nannaisthebest:
xxloveexx:
Nannnaa Garlicki is my best friend forveverrr and everrrr! :D
shes the fucking bomb and i love her! ( : ( : ( :
maya ingersoll in my best friend! and i FUCKIN LOVE HERRRRR!! i think keyboarding IS GAYYYY
i <3 you m
Nannnaa Garlicki is my best friend forveverrr and everrrr! :D
shes the fucking bomb and i love her! ( : ( : ( :
“It does not matter how slow you go so long as you do not stop.”
lets get the hell out of this town.
I just want to vent about some things here…
Weed(Pot/Marijuana) is a PLANT! An all natural plan and has no harm and there are actually some good benefits to it. Stop freaking out at me for being a pot smoker..i would be into way worse hardcore drugs..yes it may be a “drug” but its a natrual one and has no harm and cant kill me. So grow the fuck up and stay out of my life. If i...
December 2009
1 post
Life sucks.
no one is ever who they seem to be.
i creat drama for myself.
i wish everythinggg was just simple.
November 2009
1 post
have the swine flu or H1N1 or whatever this illness is fucking BLOWS!
im so sick.. i cant talk or breathhhh
and bored and lonelyyyy =/ I miss my friendssss </3
Besides from that..im head over heels…for that certian someone…Serioulsy ive liked him ever since i meet him…I really hope things can work out between us ):
<333 xoxoxox
October 2009
5 posts
i need a hug…
and i really want to makeout with a certain personn….(:
I really want to get high right now….Im dying to!
Or have a ciggerate…
So yeah…sitting in sudy hall bored out my my mind! its long block study and i have nothing to do! serisouly…well i could do english homwork but i dont have the patience for that right now.
So im really realllly really confused right now. And really really down. I dont know what to do. Sometimes i think all my “best friends” are just saying that and they dont actually like...
yeahh so im kinda worried about a certain friend of mine…i wish things were going better for him.
andddddd im kinda crazy for this guy——>haha…story of every girls life right? (:
anyways..im worried..and confused..thank god for my friends…i love themmm(you know who you are! <333)
also im spending soo much time being high..and i realy cant remeber much from...
& Truth be told I’ll be missing you. & truth be told im lying. call me a safe bet, im betting im not. well jesus christ im not scared to die, but i am a bit scared of what comes after. congratulations, now go home. come up to meet you, tell you im sorry. you don’t know how lovely you are. I wanna scream I love you from the top of my lungs but Im afraid that someone else will...
September 2009
19 posts
^^^^^^^
yeahh…
so 2 weekends ago…i did something i promised myself i wouldnt. i broke a few promises.
i cant belive i did that.
but at the same time all i can think of is doing it again! i loved the happiness…the freedom. I didnt have a care in the world when i was like that…everything was happy and carefree and perfect…
So i think this may become a habbit of...
Time is a tough thing to comprehend…sometimes you want it to go by faster, and then again there are those times where you would do anything to make it just pause for the moment you’re in. so unpredictable, so hard to grasp.
sick with a sore throat but had a sudden bout of energy.
Like real energy! i just cleaned to perfection the whol upstairs…my room and did lots of laundry!!! haha wow whats wrong with me!! soo manic!
welll im off to watch Push…i hear its a good movie
Makes me think of Mickey..shes so pissed at me. she called me..accused me and some of my other friends, then cried and when i didnt...
“Tell me something sweet to get my by.”
All I want is 1 person out of the opposite sex to cuddle and be with right now. 1 out of 6,000,000,000.. is that alot to ask?
“Look for the girl with the broken smile.
Smiles&&Lies”
“Ugly people put your hands down! [:”
:]
Good day! (:
Went to the Spencer Fair today with some of my favorite people ever!
It was juist the very best carefee day i have had in a long time!
Just all of us goofing of and laughing. No pressure. No anything.
Just all of us habibg some fun. I can have fun doing anything when I am with them!
I love them! (((:
Thank God its fridayy.
boyzboyzboyz
another day at school…..better then the last. (: i hope everyday just gets better fomr now on, and im starting to get to know other people. and my nutrition class is amazing….we get to do YOGA! :D I feel alittle better…school keeps my busy and hopefully with homework and youth group and dance lessons i will be busy and not have time to just be left alone dwelling on things. oky...
I just finsished my first day of school.
I was so nervous. Like seriously freaking out nervous.
Thank God for Gabby and Nanna who are in most of my classes.
Even thank God for Adam,Tom and Colby…cuz atleast i knew someone ya know?
Overall it was fun and i hope it gets better and i met more people.
There are some people that secretly i cant stand but whatever. I hope it doesn’t...
“Behind every smile…there is something hidden.
Everyone hurts. No ones...”
“Wasn’t it so much better once?
Wasn’t it not so hard?
Wasn’t...”
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“They say time heals everything…
but…
I’m still waiting.”
the very last
LAST DAY OF SUMMER! ):
this is so wierd and sad,
no more freedom to do whatever i want…..
School. Public high school.
so nervous. oh well at least i will be with my loves! (:
August 2009
33 posts
belive it
Don’t say you love me unless you mean it.
‘Cause I might do something crazy and believe it.
School board appointment
Doctors appointment
Eye doctor appointment
blablablabla YUCK
to many appointments!
shopping with gabs later! :D
Its over now
its all over….Im glad
I dont actually feel at all sad.
I was alittle down yesterday night but i was because of other things on top of that…
Now i am absolutely fine…i really could care less.
I feel like a big weight has been lifted of me.
Its over….Now i can breathh
overrr soon
I asked my best guy friend what was the best way to break up with a guy[btw thank you mike for always being there for me and talking to me when i rally needed it]…he said in person.
I know this is going to be super difficult for me.
And i know my bf is going to be really really mad. this is the second breakup in 2 months.
But i have to do it. I cant be a coward. lol
On a side note i...
was this over before it ever began?
I need to set that person free so they don`t become me. If we can`t make someone happy, what right do we have to be in their life? None, the answer is none.
Let them be free, let them be happy, let them enjoy life. Something they will never be able to do unless they are cut loose, and let free
I should just let all my friends and family go. They would be better of without me.
[ive heard that...
What can i say?
I was desperate.
sliping away
i feel myself falling again.
falling hard.
[no i do not mean falling for someone]
I mean myself fallin down low like last year.
I am feeling all the same hopelessness i used to.
clinical depression sucks. :/
I though it was gone…. apparently not.
I hae been having all the same thoughts and haunted by all the same things i used to be.
I dont want to go down again. I dont know if i can...
the last something that meant anything
I am breaking up with you.
Its just to painful. I cant handle a boyfriend.
I am not a stable person.
I am a bipolar bitch.
I am depressed one day and on top of the fuckin world the next.
And im not happy when im with you,
I dont want to be with you.
You dont understand me,you annoy me.
I need to be with someone who understands the shit ive been through, and i can talk to.
I felt...
have you forgotten?
I have forgotten how to have fun.
Like i really really don’t know how anymore.
I make everyone miserable with my presence.
I would be better off dead.
Everyone would be better off without me. I am worthless.
you are killing me
Oh and for everyone who doesn’t think so…words hurt.
words kill.
some things i will never change..and some things i will never forgive.
todday i did something i promised myself i wouldn’t do again.
i seem to break promises to myself all the time.
wow.
Oh dear lord
Give me strength….Give me will power.
I have 4 days to convince the school board i finished 11 grade.
I didnt though…time of some intense crunching….and lying and making everything seem better then it is.
Make myself seem smarter than i am.
I wish i had a normal education growing up.Instead of going to stupid unstable private schools who didn’t help me.
then the last...