Peace and Love

& Truth be told I’ll be missing you. & truth be told im lying. call me a safe bet, im betting im not. well jesus christ im not scared to die, but i am a bit scared of what comes after. congratulations, now go home. come up to meet you, tell you im sorry. you don’t know how lovely you are. I wanna scream I love you from the top of my lungs but Im afraid that someone else will hear me i’ve got trouble thoughts and self esteem to match. i want a perfect body, i want a perfect soul. likes vines, we intertwined. && i cant breathe without you but i have to. you might think im bullet proof but im not. so let’s not pretend like you’re alone tonight. i know she’s there. you’re probably hanging out and making eyes. i know i’m good for something, i just haven’t found it yet - but i need it. i guess i can live without you, but without you i’ll be miserable at best. things have changed, you’re not the same. sometimes i wrestle with your ghost and ask if you miss me at all, cause if we were [together] you ask if there just me be a bit of remorse. So tell me darling, do you wish we’d fall in love? All the time, all the time. I gave up coffee & & cigarettes, and i hate to say it hasn’t helped me yet. i thought my problems would just dissipate, and all my pain would be in yesterday. i poured my booze all down the kitchen drain, and watch my bad habits get flushed away. i thought that that would keep my head on straight, & all my pain would be in yesterday. but it’s true, i’m still blue. but i finally know what to do, i must quit you. Because you were never really real to begin with I just made you up, to hurt myself. I will shake the very thought of you. So lick your ciggerate and kiss me, your never coming home to me, &That’s the hardest thing to see